March – May 2018
+ journal excerpts
the subjectivity inherent in paying attention
“until we can understand the assumptions in which we are drenched we cannot know ourselves” – Adrienne Rich
Thinking about the quote from Mary Oliver – “Attention without feeling is just a report.”
The physical/sensual/visual parts of attention, the connection to spiritual/religious practice
(devotion as: attention to + attending to. [Jon Tyson])
+ Sarah bringing out observation as religious (vs. the scientific way I had been thinking of the word).
I find myself wanting a way to think about attention that is internal/separate from anyone else.
(separate from the feeling?)
But it rarely – or probably, never – is separate.
Attention as communal/relational.
So then how does attention relate to concepts of community, power dynamics, consent, communication skills, honesty, emotional intelligence, etc.
This is a much wider way of considering – but maybe the proper/needed de-centering of myself in an art practice of seeing/paying attention/observing.
Which has always felt like the uncomfortable through-line, the me-ness of these things.
Or is this just abstractly wanting to “legitimize” my little practice.
I’m not sure.
Reconciling expansion with humility – the expansion/enlargement is of our field of vision, of the depth of our empathy.
This is why the vision metaphors.
This is why the fear of blindness.
Note to self, again: ASK.
(pressed from these flowers)